Alexane Filiatreault is a writer based in Boucherville, Quebec. “Unforgettable Touch” is her first poem published in Tea & Oranges. She recommends doing nothing for a day.
I feel lonely In my own body In a shell I do not recognize In a cover I keep far from others In an envelope sealed with crazy glue Because the only touch I know is one of a monster Crude, Raw, Insensitive, Harsh. I feel it Running through my bones Like it is engraving my soul And I cannot get rid of his image His monstrous face The one of content In front of complete helplessness. Pain. One that never goes away I see it in my rearview Always And I choke on my tears The way his hand grabbed my throat Without any mercy And I pity myself Every time I cry Every time I hurt. I pity my friends who lend me their shoulders I pity my mom who feels helpless towards her own daughter I pity my dad who wants to beat a teenager he’s never met I pity my brother for having a broken role model I pity everyone except you. And your hands full of blood That you lick in delight For breakfast, Lunch, And dinner.